Inuk's Igloo : The Phun Random Chat Thread!

Ehh...slopppy typing makes the point of that sentence the opposite of what I meant lol. Not want, but won't.

 

Mel, you got hurt. will happen again. don't hurt yourself physically.

 

Hey Melonabe & Kaos!

 

Haven't been there for a week.

Awesome!
How much do you have to cough up to get your hands on it.

 

Time to go to work. Have a good night you guys. (Mel, take it easy on yourself.) See you tomorrow.

 

be safe there pm.

hey kaos.

sounds tasty scribe!

 

take care PM! Be all good.

At Subway I often just get Turkey on wheat, American cheese, lettuce & tomato, salt & pepper. toasted.

... pretty boring!

 

Half time = supper time, back in a bit....

 

Nite PM..........have a good nite............

 

sounds wicked Throbbn.

enjoy scribe!

 

Bon Appetit Scribbles!

 

I full-heartedly agree.

I want to be able to live as the miserable human being I am. With the angst, sorrow, depression and what have you. I rarely use drugs as a form of escapism, but during previous panic attacks, I've hurt my self, physically. A lot. It scares me to think af the things I might end up doing if I don't prevent these attacks. I'd rather get blasted than cut myself to pieces.
I don't see this as a rational nor sustainable solution to my problems, I know it's only temporary. I know that I'll wake up tomorrow with the exact same problems that I have today, but I prefer numbing myself for some hours, rather than bashing my head with a can or cutting up my leg with a piece of broken glass...or worse.
I've studied a lot of philosophy, mainly existentialism, nihilism and stoicism, and have given a lot of thought to the whole idea of being human and living as a part of society. Without sounding like a pretentious twat, I consider my self an existentialist. I know that to advance in life, I have to make conscious choices. The thing is though, doing my panic attacks, I get delusional and irrational. I choose to get sedated while I'm still able to think straight, as to prevent this irrational state of mind, and the consequences that might follow.

 

:hi: kaos

Take care bud.

I' either going for a spicy italian or a meatball sub. Toasted of course.

 

meatball is always a good choice. the white chocolate macadamia nut cookies rock - but are pricey.

 

friggin sweet Survivor tonight!

 

I'm sorry that my English is rather rubbish right now. I hope you manage to get the point despite my lacking language skills.

 

If you feel that I'm sharing too much information, or this topic is too out there, I'd appreciate it if you'd tell me straight up. My intention is not to irritate you, or to be a "look at me I'm a teenager with psychological problems and I use drugs to cope with them" kind of nitwit.
The fact that I don't know any of you in real lfie gives me the chane to be completely honest about myself. I'm able to share info that I wouldn't have shared with anyone otherwise.
It's a great relief in a way to get this stuff out, I hope you understand.

 

Your english is fine...........and you will be to...........

 

no bother there Melon.

that's what's nice about here, you can share if you want.

 

I've been thru some crazy mind boggling times myself........Mel.......It always works out........